2008 ... so far

From my marquee above ...

January GOAL ... running my first marathon ... ACCOMPLISHED!!!! I'm still working on this www.FirstTimeMarathoner.com but feel free to check it out.

February GOAL ... getting a Self-Growth & Goals Study & Support Group going ... NOT accomplished. Have been in preparation though so stay tuned! I shall continue creating the clearing for it in MARCH. I'll keep you posted!

Maybe She's Born With It

I was talking to my little sister, Nino, today about something that bothers me that doesn't bother her at all about our family. It's interesting how 2 people can see things so differently and there's, I think, plenty of reasons why. I think the number 1 reason is distance. She lives in Dallas with none of our family around her; I am here with the issue constantly in my face. However, there are other siblings here with the issue right in their backyard as well but they either don't mind it, don't care, or just choose not to deal with it. How I wish I could be like that!

This is where being born with it comes in. I was born with love and justice as core characteristics. I suspect we all are but I think this is really the center of myself and my calling. In the past passion and social responsibility were words that resonated so strongly with me that I wrote them down on a special page in the back of my journal when I was younger. This is who I am so when something isn't that, I can't help but notice and be bothered even if no one else is.

In my heart of hearts, I know what's happening is not right. At best, the situation is not its positive potential. At worst, it is just plain wrong. This isn't about what is right and what isn't for me either though; it's about what is based on love and what is based on fear. As I said to Nino, "Everything else is bullsh*t, you know?"

I'm a strong believer is all that's good in life and the world. Everything else - all the negativity, hate, et cetera - is, as I said to her "a waste of perfectly good and valuable time that needs to be spent on something else in my life. It's just that simple."

And it is.

30 years of garbage is just such a load! How long am I supposed to carry it? I'll tell you how long ... no longer. :-) It's time to walk away from this, swim from the shore, move on. My heart has waited long enough.