Going Out
Today I went with my kids, my helper/nanny, and a friend and her kids to see a Disney on Ice show. Later my helper/nanny and I went continued on with my kids to Chuck E. Cheese's for pizza, ice cream, and games. And it was so good. I was thoroughly spent by the time we got back home at 3 PM but I still went out and played in the rock pile with Ian and then played video games with him and Dylan when he woke up from his nap. It was an awesome, quality time day and you know what? I plan on doing this more often.
You see, I have noticed lately more than ever that I tend to be a homebody and although I'm not quite sure why, I know it's something I don't want to be. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to classify myself as someone who needs to go out either. I just want to be indifferent to both scenarios and not have a reason for one or the other. The thing is that I know I prefer to stay in and that's fine when that's the only reason but do I stay in to avoid something? I think a lot of the time I do.
I get a sense I often want to avoid dealing with imagined "hassles" instead of seeing the possibility for fun and adventure and that's actually understandable a lot of the time with 2 young children, especially an active 18-month old who will not sit for longer than 10 minutes, if I'm lucky! :-) However, I get a sense I also want to avoid not getting my things - whatever may be on my endless personal and/or professional to do list - done. Unfortunately, one never gets it all done, right? At least I don't not before there's more on the list!
So, from today on, nothing is getting added to the list indefinitely. Really, I'm going on a sabbatical from "new doings" and I'm going out - by myself, with my hubby, with my kids, with family, with friends because life moves fast, man, and before you know it, it has passed you by and it's over and I don't want to look back on a lot of days of endlessly doing mindless stuff that does not count for much in the grand scheme of things. That's just not a life I'd be proud of in the end and if I (or my life) am about something other than being my best for my kids more than anyone else, it's, without a doubt, that - living a life I can look back on with total pride, mistakes and all of course, especially looking at and having learned from them fully as I have from this very issue.
So, enough said! I'm going out ... just kidding! It's time for bed now. But tomorrow I will. :-) [post finished at 8:36 PM]
You see, I have noticed lately more than ever that I tend to be a homebody and although I'm not quite sure why, I know it's something I don't want to be. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to classify myself as someone who needs to go out either. I just want to be indifferent to both scenarios and not have a reason for one or the other. The thing is that I know I prefer to stay in and that's fine when that's the only reason but do I stay in to avoid something? I think a lot of the time I do.
I get a sense I often want to avoid dealing with imagined "hassles" instead of seeing the possibility for fun and adventure and that's actually understandable a lot of the time with 2 young children, especially an active 18-month old who will not sit for longer than 10 minutes, if I'm lucky! :-) However, I get a sense I also want to avoid not getting my things - whatever may be on my endless personal and/or professional to do list - done. Unfortunately, one never gets it all done, right? At least I don't not before there's more on the list!
So, from today on, nothing is getting added to the list indefinitely. Really, I'm going on a sabbatical from "new doings" and I'm going out - by myself, with my hubby, with my kids, with family, with friends because life moves fast, man, and before you know it, it has passed you by and it's over and I don't want to look back on a lot of days of endlessly doing mindless stuff that does not count for much in the grand scheme of things. That's just not a life I'd be proud of in the end and if I (or my life) am about something other than being my best for my kids more than anyone else, it's, without a doubt, that - living a life I can look back on with total pride, mistakes and all of course, especially looking at and having learned from them fully as I have from this very issue.
So, enough said! I'm going out ... just kidding! It's time for bed now. But tomorrow I will. :-) [post finished at 8:36 PM]
posted by Narah at 6:09 PM
