Close Call

I had a tire blowout yesterday. Thank God I was not going very fast (20-30 MPH) but I had been going 50-60 MPH right before. In fact, I had felt my car tug to the left and to the right, all out of whack, in a tipping kind of way even, and my heart skipped a beat or two at the momentary loss of control I felt at my steering wheel. Once I regained control though I just thought it may have been a wind draft from the big 18-wheelers on the road. I was wrong. My tire was about to go.

In retrospect, I should've seen it coming because I was really aware at the time and any time I've had a close call, I have felt extremely plugged in right before and even in the days prior. In this case, I had just passed 4 signs of remembrance that people put on the road now when a loved one dies in a car accident all together and I really saw them and not just noticed them and I really thought about them, like, "wow, 4 people in one wreck, that's just terrible and so sad." The day before too, as I saw a lady getting out of her truck at the Walgreens, I noticed a sign on her rearview window that said "FOR MY SON" with the dates of his birth and death. He was 25, I believe, and I just thought about her like "oh my gosh, a son lost, just awful, how do you deal with the heartache, the hole in your heart?"

So yeah, it should come as no surprise seeing as it just seems death has been right there, not waiting for me or anything like that, but just in my space, so to speak. I was just so lucky yesterday and I'm so grateful. I want to be around a long, long time.

That being said, if something should ever happen to me (or when it does because I will die someday), this is what I would want known about me because it is the way I strive to live:

She adored her husband, children, both sides of her family (Anderson & Rivera), and her pets :-) and all her friends; she loved the people that touched her life in one way or another, she loved the world and people in general; she had a blast; she was a positive person, a light in a world full of darkness sometimes; she loved God; she was very happy and just CRAZY about life.

That just about covers it!

In closing, I do want to say that I am always aware of the following but that it just bears repeating at a time like this: life is EXTREMELY beautiful and it is all WAY MORE THAN worth it. So, take every minute, "good" or "bad," today and every day, with gratitude and reverence because you really don't know when it will be your last. Take a deep breath right now and take it all in. It's an amazing thing, life. :-)

I Am ... Faithful

Excerpted from A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles, one of my favorite books ever (my 3rd favorite after the Bible - # 1 and Gary Zukav's The Seat of the Soul - # 2), from which this blog is named.*

"To trust in the force that moves the universe is faith. Faith isn't blind, it's visionary. Faith is believing that the universe is on our side and that the universe knows what it's doing. Faith is a psychological awareness of an unfolding force for good, constantly at work in all dimensions. Our attempts to direct this force only interferes with it. Our willingness to relax into it allows it to work on our behalf. Without faith, we're frantically trying to control what it is not our business to control and fix what it is not in our power to fix. What we're trying to control is much better off without us, and what we're trying to fix can't be fixed by us anyway. Without faith, we're wasting time."

* You can see this on the main page of my site: www.narahvalenska.com
The asterik on the title of this blog is a reference to 2 passages in Marianne Williamson's A Return To Love ... another book I love. You can find out what these passages say about "Avalon" and "Fairytales" on pages xxiv and 47, respectively.

Life ... In A Nutshell

"Every thought we think either extends the truth or multiplies illusions."

"... every thought you have brings either peace or war; either love or fear. "

Amen.

Beautiful

Holy mackerel! I am never taken by someone's looks but today I saw a picture of a man on a calendar at the hair salon I get my nails done that was unbelieveable. Beautiful hardly describes this guy. The whole place was like "whoa!" I mean, all the ladies were laughing and giggling like schoolgirls! Maybe because it was a giant wall calendar (like 3 feet by 4), it had even more of an impact. Whatever the case, this man is stunning! I will take a picture of the calendar next time I'm there so you can see. I think you will agree!